i can't see her go.. me, hidayah, jonna and liping tried so hard not to let her go, but she insist of doing it. so, we left no choice.. walking and talking with her, makes me confident that i can be like her. happy always without any problems. thats what i like about her.. i'm so upset. i wonder who would be the next english teacher.. we left no choice, but have to follow the school demand. and its like, WHAT THE FCUK!. i regret for not following them to soccer the other time. but not to worry, cause i have her number. haha, can always sms or call her, yah!

MISS JOYCE NG, WE GONNA MISS YOU!.


tiring day, had malay oral yesterday. the examiner; okay but after we left, they will laugh, especially the guy... laugh like pig; laugh till his ass gets burn up AH! stupidedd!

yesterday, i miss that chance!
chance that me and him , walk together to school - obviously not faris.. its that green gentleman..
awwwww, seriously lahhh... but because of my friends and miss joyce was there, i sacrifice sia..
i get to ask him ' are you alone?' and all he do was 'nod'.. never say, ' you want to walk with me?' haha, thats not gentleman anymore.. hahaha.. lalalal, i love you thoughh... =)

HelOO! just getting better ; from fever and sorethroat. haish.. my temperature was 38.7 when i got to Poly. hahaha. well, now i'm okayh. No problem HOR!. so , mc from school for 2 damn days! woooHOOO! and i miss my friends and that green gentleman so muchh!! awwww...

AWW MISS JOYCE NG MISS YOU SOOO MUCHH! i never get to join you guys for soccer today! damn regret, wont never forget. but there will always a next time, right?. hahaha.. sooo, sit at home, eat, take medicine, sleep, haishh.. no life!. hahaha...

I'm so into KOREAN DRAMA! sit at home watch it. hear the songs, OH MA MA GOD! hahaha. damnnnn NICEE! * wide SMILE!!

well, to all my friends:
Fadhil
Farid
Atikah
Rohaini
Fithri
Farrah
Hidayah
Luqman
Indra
Ahmad
Adnan Fart Horrahman
All the my cinonets... (chinese friends)

THANKS FOR ALL THE 'GET WELL SOON' WISHES! I APPRECIATE IT A LOT!! LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! SO MUCHH, MUACKS!


~ i wonder, if he knows about this.

Today is Be YourSelf Day and also Racial Harmony Day. so, i wear something simple.. the other 4; Atikah, Farrah, Hidayah and Fithriyani, wore the traditional clothes... hahah... had fun today.!! after school, went to Hougang Mall, follow Rohaini. after that, went bak home, watch the MY GIRL - korean drama!!!! wooohhhhhhhoooooooooo!

-taking pictures here and there. and i saw my green gentleman aka evil eyes. i was posing, taking pictures with Shalini and Sateesh.. *hehehe.. and there that evil eyes came, walk past and looking at my direction.. if you have something to say, i wish you could say it before i left the school. i have those 3 words to say and just now, i thought of taking a picture together, but, i didnt have the gut to ask you. afraid what your friends might say.. well, everything is over. but, i have one major problem at home. aishhh... STRESS!

yah Ahmad Almuzzakir, the nenek kebayan eh.. hahahah Azali The atuk kebayan?? hahaha damn funny lah you guysss... =)

ey ey ey.. ayeayeaye.. getting hyper this few days.. i think i inject the wrong medicine -shitt. *sarcastic smile* hehehe.. today, hang out at school with ikah,farrah,fithri and SHALINI ahh. Fuyoh!! okayh, do karangan - so SUSAH MAN. hmm, halfway... so that evil eyes.. hahaa.. walk pass say 'nak sikit' cause i was eating titbit mahh.. want some eh, come ahh.. hahah, meh i suap kan.. hahahahah -nat getting crazier..
ahaha, everything went well... discussion here and there about tomorrow, BE YOURSELF DAY LAH SEYH! haha and also racialharmony day.. dunwan wear bajukurungg.. hahahaha.. there's a reason for it mann.. so, after spending almost a day at school, went to Hgg Mall, eat. ermh, HOTFUDGE>>Fries. WoOHOO! blanja them. okayh lahh... abt tiring.....

i love you, evil eyes.. but its not the time yet.
no worries, just smile at me more okayh., help me out for my karangan too eh..

heloo peeps! argh, its weekend.. and my dad wont go to watch his famliy side, soccer. awww.. i love when we went to Tampines Safra. haha, those fights, really scared me.. awww.
so yesterday, i had my dnt papers- hmm, all those in the journal lahs, hand in to teacher.. yay! but, solidworks. i had not finish it yet..
hmm, not yet decided what to wear for the racial harmony day and also the be yourself day. hmm, lots of dicussions made, but no results. aiyahhh, better dont go ahh.. hhahaha. - nat, cam yeye
oh yah, my class has a new english teacher!!!!!! WOOHOO! she's nice mann. i hope there's an improvement lahs..
okayh, so during eng lessons, got rape by Cassandra. haahahhhaha.. (joking lahs)
went out after consultation with Ms Joyce Ng - eng t'cher.. tired siols.. argh, dont know whether today i go out.. haiyah, got karangan somemore.. leceh mann..
better do it.. if NOT,,

*some people thinks that they are always right.
i love this quote- its from The Strokes; You Only Live Once.. its damn nice and its for my friend.

ey ey ey.. today school's is just the same.. so boringg.. awwww.... but getting stress ahh. lots of things to do..
~the usual stuffs lahs.
so, everything went perfectly normal today. no fights. nothingg. well, today is the first day that i ignored somebody. and that somebody, i hope you know what i mean, to get rid of you; it isnt easy as i thought at first. but as time passed, i'm able to endure it.. i'm able to let it flow smoothly..after that happen , in school, i left with hidayah. left him too. no time to look at his innocent face but cold-blooded.. huh, one word - WHATEVER.

ey ey ey, i lost my giraffe notebook!! anyone see it, pls inform me. it contains my secret siols..
i love you my crazy peeps. btw,
HAPPY(advance)BIRTHDAY, KHAIRULDDIN BIN LUKMAN!!! awww, me and my friends miss ya TOO!.
sorry, this year i had nothing for ya. dui bu qi hor..!

; some people thinks that they are always RIGHT.

Its raining very heavily today. Haish. Lucky got in school with Faris in time, if not.. i might get WET! haha.. well, we've got a new english teacher. YAY! but only TEMPORARY. aww.. hahah... she's quite good lahs. Today everything went smoothly. but, i never see him. awwww. its okayh. after school, thought of escaping from SRP, but cant.. kena lecture.. bla bla bla bla.. whatever.. Laugh laugh laugh, during recess- as per normal , crazy peeps jokes.. but, today, no sign of him. its like one whole day.. ah nevermind.. its like as if he cares. haha. but no evil eyes lahs today. hmmm.. should i sms him or.. Argh NAT!

After school, went to zai's house. watch that cd. creeppy siols.. ahhhh, cant tell you. ask me privately.. went home with indra. as we walk, we talk about 'ermh' and my problems. haish. stress siia. lots of things to do siia.
ADAM CALL ME JUST NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i was like, 'what the hell!'... lalalalala...

[i cant stop thinking about that incident, where you held her hand, and i was just at the opposite. i knew it, you saw me.. and you were with your friends, they seems to like that girl than me. thats why, i choose to be rough on you. no more sweet talk. its kau and aku. no more, you and I. i was thinking, did i ever done anything wrong to you?. and yes, that album, private.. i'm fine with or without you. thanks for those chances. thanks for everything. but i want you to remember one thing, the day that we got together..]

I'm Back! yesterday, had my English Oral. Me and the rest was like so DAMN nervous siia. its like we're going for A WAR?! -Thats what ikah say. haha, yesterday morning, went to school with Faris belo, hhaaha, and guess what, he nearly fall own, as i was giving out some biscuits to Sateesh.. hha. i laugh till he got mad.!!! hahahahaha, laugh laugh and laugh..! Recess time also laughh.!! Finally, after Oral, went to art room- ART STUDENTS>> aww. just lepak-ing for awhile.. and then i thought of to study, but.. argh. its quite late.. so went home.. i saw him too.. we stared at each other. then we turned away.
today, was fun. fun. fun. during recess time, i -fast- hhahaha.. together with ikah.. aww, you're welcome. will always be there, chheyy.. suddenly, i caught someone's eye looking at me. and i didnt notice it all this time, laughing out loud , cause of my crazy peeps jokes.. its him, who stared at me.. after knowing that, i dare not to look at those evil eyes. haha.
haha, after school, went to compass point with luqman and zai.. ahyah, this luqman wanna buy a present for his kakak sedare lohh. ahh, after that went home. bored siols..

-dont ever talk behind our back, say it face to face.. dont accuse people unnecessary. if you're jealous, thats you're problem.. you wanna me to place you and your friends to THE SCHOOL OF ACCUSERS? or maybe THE SCHOOL OF BITCHES? pick one.

stay away from ME AND MY FRIENDS.

hey, good afternoonn! i was suppose to update my blog yesterday, but too busy lahs. Yesterday, did not go anywhere but just stayed at home. It rained yesterday and i loved it! Cold.Watch HarryPotter and do the paper stars too. well, i've got 900 plus of it.. but i'm not gonna give him all of it. actually, my plan was to give all, but my mom told me not to, as she also do it and wanna keep it. so i choose the one that i've done and also the one that is neat and nicely done. i went to a shop yesterday, and found out a box that i can put those stars and give it to him, hmm about the present - not yet found.
oh yah, talking about Presents, i was sms-ing Khai, telling him that i saw him at school, soccer and i miss him and his peeps too. he miss me and my peeps too. aww! the sweetest thing is that, before we say goodnight to each other, he told me that his birthday is on next friday and wants me to wish him, and lastly, he told me that he kept and use the name-chain that i gave him. AWW! isnt that sweet?. i can't believe that. i was so touched, cry. haha, tears of joy lah. haha. told Indra about it, and he was like,' serious?' haha.. aww, but he has a girlfriend lahs. me and him, its a long long long story..
so, online just now, and i saw Fadhil online too. at first i thought i wanna say Hi! but, argh, nevermind. Then suddenly, 'LO!' from him.
Fadhil: 'LO!'
Me:'Yea.
F: 'I know liao that pompuan.'
Me:' saper blang? adnan?'
F: ' My eyes'
Me:'Your eyes???????????!'
F:' I saw them together.'
Me:'ouh'
this conversation go on. he told me that they both are a odd couple. and he laugh. Me too burst out laughing!! he also told me that its so funny. haha, yah, fadhil , they are very odd and funny!!. but, let them be, cause its none of my concern anymore. whatever happens, i'm happy with the way i'am.. thanks for loving me those two years. thanks for those smiles that we usually exchange with each other. thanks for accusing me. thanks for everything.. but still, i may not forget those words that you threw at me. cried without you knowing that pain that i held alone. and now, you're happy with the person you loved, please dont ever try to talk to me at sch, cause i know, you wanna smile at me. dont denied it. i hate you forever and ever. sorry for that.

~ i hope that we get to know each other well. but, i guess its to late. please accept this lil present from me. This will be the First and the Last one... i love you, A. so mucch. well, you might see me with those guys, my friends, but in my heart, its for you. only you.

I love this picture. This is Aisyah, my lil cute nephew.
This was taken when she was playing with those rails.
cute right?.
I Love Her soo much..

School's fun. like the usual. after school, went to help Zai out with his artefact. we chat all the way till we saw Luqman. Asked him to lepak with us. he agreed, and so, the TRIO's - three, chatt all the wayy.. its a rainy day today. haish. sms Indra to lepak with us, he was hooked up with the Art students. after awhile, we saw the 4ed's. hahah, aidil was like in a rushh..

M-me: ' eh hie! pe kau buat pat sini?'

A-Aidil: 'eh hie! aku ader d&t srp ah. kau tau tak pat maner. aku tgk aku sorang jer yang lain takde.'

M: 'ohh. tadi aku nampak Izyani and Atika. maybe pat atas tak? gie check.'

A:' oh kay ah, thanks eh! bye.'

went out. hahah.. he's cute.. eh, cute eh nothing more..

its good that they have d&t srp, i dont have lahs. haiz..

haha, the best part was when i was suppose to go and ask the instructors about the glue, i saw A and F and a teacher. i was like, 'oh okayh, pe hal tgk2?' face. ahhh, just go to the room ah. i take a peep on the 2 instructors.. haha, nat nat, got nothing better to do..

when the A and the F followed their teacher, i thought that they've gone. so , i asked Zai to accompany me. okayh lahh, he follow. Then, the A and F and a teacher went out from this room.. dunno ah what they take.. i don't know why suddenly i say' HI!' at them. ahahah, weird. i mean i saw them once. and i saw them again. and this time i say 'HI!'. weirdo ah Nat!!.

[maybe i should not told him yet, but, whats done, done. i cant really turn the time back and made changes here and there. and i've got a feeling that i wont never meet him anymore. its kindda weird at first. i really dont understand. but, to him, you're the first and the last. there's no one that i can replace you. eventhough i like the guys out there, but my heart will be with you. so, forgive me for what i've said and done. i know, its not the time yet and i won't force you, but i just wanna make you know that i love you. but now, i'm changing. it happen so suddenly.. i guess you know what i mean by that. i've been mixing with guys lately as they understand better that girls. i'm sorry my girlfriends, i love all of you, you will always in my mind.]

So, i had a beautiful, wonderful Wednesday! laugh till i cry during D&T lessons because of this SATEESH!! it will be bored without jokers or clowns in class. aww, i miss Adam! haha, and Fir too!! where has he gone to? I do miss him soo MUCH!! since the last time he said that he had a crush on ME, and i was so SUPRISED, he never sms me anymore. OH MY! did I do anything wrong. okayh, if i did right, sorry okayh?..
well, MJ - Michael Jackson, i really love you and i'm gonna miss you and that smile of yours. aww, to me your'e still alive. IMY! May GOD bless him. I cried when his daughter, PARIS, said that I LOVE YOU DADDY!. haish, my tears are like the waterfall, cant stop crying just because of that. aww.

hmm, i'm curious. thinking if he's gonna like my present or not. i really cant stop thinking about it. OH SOMEONE HELP ME!. and today, i had 365 paper stars! WOOhOO!! me and my mom, we did that together. i told my mom that i'm gonna give that to my friend. i'm addicted to paper stars!!!

yesterday, i dreamt of him. it was kindda funny. he and his friends went to my house. i'm not sure what for. but, when his friends left, he stay put. and i when i ask him why he stay, he say he wanna be with me!! i WOKE UPP! haha, but sometimes , dreams fake. yah, sometimes. today, full moon. i made a wish in the morning when i was about to go to school, i saw, the full moon. and my wish is granted! isnt it WONDERFUL?!. well, i am trying my best to not say anything to him, till i give him those paper stars. its for him. his birthday which is on Sept. i'm getting it prepared earlier. scared that i had no time to get it prepare. but , i dont know how to give it to him. thats the problem. about the present, i might be buying him the same bracelet that i had now.hmm, i hope he liked it.=)

okayh, i'm gonna sleep now. so see ya!
I LOVE MY PEEPS!
~nat~

YAH!

wakeup call by abu yesterday!!! i was shock mann. i was in sleep, skali my mom shouts; 'CHA, ADER ORG NI CALLL!!!' fuyoohh! i woke up, -kelamkabut-.. haha, my hair was in the messed! .. he callled, me saying that why i never work again lah, blablabla.. i just entertain him.
today, no SCHOOL!. tmr YES! haiz, i did not even do my maths hmwrk, ah, malas.. tired man.
yah, i was wondering, if i do the paper stars, would he care? hmm, i was planning something up. well, i've not yet tell the others about it. maybe wont tell. hmm.. dunno lah.. -sian
hmm, maybe i will share this with his bestfriend, F.
his birthday is way too long, and i had started to do this and that. would he love it? hmm, i know, i'm not like the other girls, that he dated before ah, but , seriously , would he love it? . aiyahh, dunno lehh..

today sucks. never went out. raining? that might be the reason. ahs...
i was asked out by A, again.. well , malas lahs. i told him i had lots of hwrk to do.. haiz.. should have said yess!!! AWW......

so, cant wait to meet EVERYONE tmr!
miss them .. WOOhoo.!

finally

its like finally. finally, i've done abit touch-up on my blog.. still figuring out about it. i need help! oh PLEASE!!
Today, i've done nothing. bored ah. mom and dad went out. me and brother plus my aunt at home. aiyahh... okayh lah eh..
wait, i've got a bit problem. i guess my peeps knew about it. i was being accused of something. that fcuker just dont believe me. what the hell!! - get lost ah.

lets put it aside. it hurts me.

Friday. i laugh till i had a new voice. serak2 siols. because of sateesh ah.. he will never fail to make his friends laugh till we drop. - opps. haha.. awww, we love you sateesh!! so, yesterday, i went home alone. those bitches had to go for their art lessons LAH.. okayh, so waited for the bus 62, i'm going to Hgg Mall, meet my mother lahs then who.. haha, well, at first i let the first bus go , i thought i would catch up the next one. so, waited and waited. i was talking with Suhaili, 4eB.. nice chatting with her.. So, the next bus arrived. WTF!. its full ... and i was late. mom called. naggggg... etc..
okayh, i am really HOT. fewh, waited for the next one..
Finally, get througH!! WOOhoOO!..

got in. cramped. you know. there is this two girl from - NOT TO MENTION-
they are like a BITCH!. look up and down as though i've borrowed them money. like WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT !
i was fcuked up at that time. i cant take it, but, i kept my mouth shut. dont wanna fight. Such a disgrace to my school. haiz...
yesterday, chatting with JamShaik. about his hair?.
seriously, its nice. but it has to be CUT! awwwww, i'll miss it!