forgive her

She's not the same anymore.
She's not the same anymore.
She's way too different now.
Don't mind her.
She's way to upset.
And she needs time on her own.
I pity her much.
Yes I do.




*K*

morning Fb then Blog then bath then SCH

OK! GOOD MORNING FOLKS!

Muscle cramp. due to soccer! WTH! SAKIT SIA! Haahaa!!
Ok nevermind, just go to school!!! Full attendence please!!

Here's the plan for this week : Friday - Interview ( 2pm - 5pm )

Oh yah, I've apply that job and hopefully I get it.
PRAY HARD!!!

That should be me

SOMERSET ALMOST EVERYDAY!
SCAPE SCAPE!! MACAM NAK MATI JALAN! HAAAHAA!
But, It's awesome!!!

Went to JOB HUNT.

One : Needs a assistants ( retail ), female prefered. But, wants EXPERIENCED ONE. walandeh!
Two : Needs a part time staff, but it sells all guys shirts. and the staff there is a 2 chinese handsome hunks! HAAH! How to work, if i'm in the same shop with them? Haaha, instead of working, i go flirting eh! HAAAHA!!


Alright, for band.
Name have been decided. SHIT, serious pe? I'm using ELAN as the band name. SERIOUS?
Think Think THINK NATTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!

ELAN??
I'm thinking hard on this one.
Oh man!! HELP!

Ok, why not, i use ELAN for this moment.
And maybe, i'll think on it later on.



Making our own songs isnt that easy as what i think. Dear Lady H, thanks for agreeing to it, and yeah, take time babe. I'm going to be active next month. ( I guess) Now, its just planning and stuff. Busy eh NAT. HAAHA!!


Oh ya, I'm still waiting for that volunteering work. HAIZZ..
Next month oi!

No job. Boring...



Oh yah, got this one UNCLE wants me to marry his son!!!!!!!!!!!! WTH!!!
OH NO MAN! Haahha..
Uncle, you joking kan? I know. But if real, OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He's cute sia. He told my mum that, his son got looks, and can give me a house, a car, 2 maids and also $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!!!!!!!!!

I was like, BLUR SOTONG ONE CORNERR!!! -__________-"



That should be me, holding your hands.
That should be me, making you laugh.
You're forgiven.
Now, let's lead a new life.
Your life.
My life.
Your way.
My way.
:)


Remember this, when i'm leaving, I want you to remember only this, ' Smile, eventhough it hurts. '

watch me

I was searching for him like almost long time and yes he's in the same school as me. Isn't it great? Haaha!! I know where he work at. I'm not a stalker ok!! WALAO!
Because before he enters my school, I already knew where he work at and yes, each time i went there, he would be there.. Today kindda weird. Met him when me and my classmates were having break for our NUKE lessons.. Again and again man! haaha!!!

Arab guy! URGH! HAAHA! I told myself again and again not to fall for arab guys, i don't know why. I'm sorry guys, who is a arabian now. SEE LAH! KARMA! PADAN MUKER AKU! WOOHOO! Haah! *perangai*

So, schooolllll like one fvcking shit. Do nothing. Stare at Mac. Mac stare at me. And we both fall in love. I slept in class for the first lessons. Yeah, waiting for the other groups to do their recording takes hour, mins and secs. (LOL?) HAAHA. Nevermind man, got some other day right? Haaha! ALright, for NUKE, I give up. :)

So, oh yah before I TERLUPER, Me and a friend of mine, a good old friend, have decided to make up my own band. For now, me and him ( a guitarist ). I'll have plans now. Lots of it. To cover up some songs.. Thanks man, for agreeing to it. I've asked a friend of mine to be a songwriter and yes, She agreed to it. Love you!!

Making some changes in life..
Watch me as I change..


Any volunteering work? I need one.

that place there

I've made up my mind.. Real one this time. No joking.
I've planned what i'm going to do for the next few years.

Let me enjoy while I can here.

Every rose has it thorns

Choose : Guitar or Piano better?

Shit, it's difficult. I'm more to the guitar side. Hmmm. Let me think harder before making decision. Need to learn back, forget almost lots of things. Need help. Friends are there. Fadhil and also Crebo...

To think back, Guitar is much more better. Hmm, maybe both? Haaha! Nat, make up your mind!!! Let me think first!


Lots of things to buy then. Wooohoo! Can't wait for my bloody pay and yes, I'm finding a job now. To let myself busy with. Well, I know, I'm going to be tired and more but,I need it badly.. Hopefully I get to find one....


Walao. Put the blame on Sumatra for you make me sick. :(
Flu strikes and I'm sneezing like hell..

Alright, firstly i would like to thank NADINE NADYA for yesterday!! You're great woman!! NN <3 !!
We talked quite alot. And she's fun to be with. Lots of things were shared. Haaha!
La sey NN's! Haaha!! Went to have our very first fun, KARAOKE LA SEY!! Made a video, for her Ex. Haah! *name* FUCK!! Haaha!!!

Maybe going there again next week with a different partner.

School : So far, everything's fine for now. But, sooner or later, assignments here and there. So, check it out yaw!!

Why everytime cousin would asked, ' so , you got boyfriend now? I know who. You don't lie. You have right?' At that point, i went BLUR..

Well, cousins, I don't have any intention yet to have one. Maybe one day. And you all mistook him as my boyfriend is it? That (I) is it? Haaha. Nahh, he's a good friend of mine. And I love him though..

OH well, let's not take about love ok.. Haaha..

Saturday : I did not bathe till it's 7pm at night. I'm lazy. LOL SIA ME! Haaha! A new record, I've made. Just slacking at home. Sleep, Eat and watch tv.


Changes will soon be made.
I'm changing some stuffs.
Anything, I'll update about it.

Nights people.

terluka

This post would be the very last one about him.


Eversince i know you syawal, you brought me some happiness in life. Although for awhile. Way back before, i lose trust on guys. I hate them. I totally hate them for what they did to me. But, when i know you, i was thinking, should i give this one i know, a chance. And yes i did.. But too bad, it all went to the drain, am i right?
you love someonelse, not me? Why lie? Tell her you love her. Not me, muhd. I know you well muhd. I know you well. I was hoping that, you're the one. Seems, that i'm wrong. Tell me if i'm wrong muhd..

What must i do to prove you that i love someone , which is you?
What am i supposed to do, muhd? Tell me.

I don't want to talk more about this.

I've got few words.

Tell the girl that you really love, tell her straight. She's the one that you treasure, not me. people say, if you have someone in your heart now, don't ever let go. SO, dont let her go.. Ok? I don't know if you're reading this or not.. Remember, don't ever let her go?

I want to see you happy with the one you love.

* aku terpaksa pergi dahulu, kerana hati ini terluka. *

i dont know what else to do

i'm heavily broken.
just sit and cry.

i've tried to talk to you
and you ignored
thats what you want
ok


i'll just sit and cry
sit and cry
cry
cry
cry




i need time alone.
anc cry.


i dont know what to do.

hi

Nothing to say

love just the way you are

I'm touched by your call just now, muhd.
Thanks.

Can you please don't go?
Please...

I promised, i won't make you panic anymore.
But please, don't go.
If you go, I have no SB to call out.

I'm going to be lonely again then.
:(


And yes, i was about to cry when you said those.
Please, don't gooo.



I'm touched by what you told me just now.
Yes, indeed.
This is the first time i heard all these from you.

I don't know when we would meet again.
I'm just busy with school stuffs.
And you, too.

oi

TenTenTen.

Morning madness with bro..

Went to my friend's wedding.

Went to bugis.

Went to tampines.



Fvck M.I.C people. CB AH!
I was in the bus, and you push,push and push! Like what the fvck!
And I stared at them.
And the best part is when I maximized the volume of my ipod and the M.I.C people who sat beside me, got fed up. Trying to covered up his ears. Fvck lah eh!

Haaha! Pity sia eh! LOL!

ok, tooo tired, so bye.

SB, I miss you so much.

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them up
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

I loooooooooooooove today

I love today!
WOOOOOOOOOOOHOO!
Went to watch people skate with those guys.
Then meet mum.
WWWWWWWWWOOOOOOHOO!

Then we walked around, went somewhere far.

IS!! I know the place alreaddy!! Haahaa! BOO!!!!!


And yes, I did pierced my nose just like my mum..
Today is such a GREAT DAY EVER!!
WOOHOO!

Ok bye.

BOO!

Fun

It's been so long since I touched those guitars, those drum sets and stepping on to the studio. The last time i went for recording, it was like 2 years ago. My very first experienced. Me and Zul, we sang our very own song. Damn funny. But, we had a great great time!!

My dream was to have my very own band. How I wished that would happened, like NOW!
Haaha, I want to. LOL.. I want!
Seriously shit.



I miss those years memories in secondary school.
Firstly, got hit by a ball in the leg,hand and even my back. Fvck.
Then, me, running around the school, with pants. LOL.
Got caught for not tucking in shirt.
Cheat when in mini test.
Bring in food to class, and have our very own picnic.
Listening to music.
Having our very own DJ.
Miss slapping people. OMG!
Miss using vulgarities in class and almost every single day except for Fasting Month.
OPPSS! Haaha!
I miss those moments.
How I wish, I could turn back the time now, and living happily with those moments.

How I wish.




*** So please, give me a lesson on how to steal a heart.

*** I never be the same, if we ever meet again.

Alright, went to school at 10am plus. And yes, i get to finish up some stuffs. Need time to complete it all.. Next week, it's school re open ,and yeah, I had not enough holidays. Having a 2 weeks holidays and yet still have to go to school, HAIZ. Might as well no holidays.
Me and my friends, were having a very hard time.
But, no matter what guys and girls, we had a great time for the past 6 days..
Seeking help from each other, laughing out loud together. Tired together.

Friends, you guys and girls ROCK my past 6 days.

After school, went to find some chocolates with Fatin and also Fika.
Awesome, I had my favourite one!
Almond Gold!

Hershey is just way toooooooooooooooooo expensive yet, NICE..


Then, went back home around 7pm plus.
Walked like a zombie, just tooo tired.
And it rains.......


Chat for awhile with Izuan. He got a new haircut eh? Haaha
Commented on Faizal's status about his MIYA and SUZIE! Haahaaa.


Awesome people.

Good night.

Boring sia

I met Sufian/Sufyan in the bus, when I was on the way to school. Handsome eh you! LOL! You've grown up. AWW! Miss you dude!
ALright, went to school and start my work! Damn stressing sia. WTH. I've got lots to do. And yeah, I can do it attitude please come!!! I beg you baby!! Haahaa!
Izuan, we always play bowling together almost everyday, so where's my ICECREAM?!!! I'm waitinggg. You don't perangai botanic garden eh, like yesterday. Haaha!!
To Muhd : Are you OK? Seems not. Well, anything tell me ok? <3 you.
I can't sleep yesterday. Thinking. Thinking. I don't know why.. Insomnia??? Think.


Such a boring day.
Nothing much happened.
:)

you found me

He called me again. And this time round, i was asleep. My phone was just beside me and maybe it flip to answered. But, i didn't realised it till i woke up at 5am plus just to check my phone. I called him back. But he may be fast asleep by now. So, went to school. But halfway through I have to meet mum.
Went to Little India. MEH! Then, He called me again. Missed. I called him back, and we talked for awhile before I went to eat.
Then, accompany her go somewhere else. And yeah. Called him back. So, we talked a little then.


You found me , when no one else was looking, how did you know just where I would be???


Someone asked me on formspring : Being single is better than attach right? Dont' go flirt around although you're single kan?

I wondered WHO.


OK, Tc, got stuffs to do.

Selamat.

WALAO

She use this picture and set it as my WALLPAPER on my phone! HAHA!

Let the pictures do the talking

Can I ride this again? ALL TIME FAVOURITE!!!



My F1 buddy, Shafiq. Before he got his hair cut!! HAHAA!!



Me : AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!



My hair now. Awesome not? Haahaa..

Friends.

My best Buddy. Koh Thye Chuan.



My primary school mate, Farhan.


My day together goes like this : Woke up around 9am plus. A loner. As per usual. I'm all alone. It's Ok. USUAL. Then, instead of bathing, i went to FB and karaoke-ing. Fun. Laughing alone. LOL. Then, text Lady H, asking if she wants to accompany me for breakfast. I treat her. HEEHEE! Long John Silver! WOHOO! Then after that, went to lepak for awhile.. Talking crap plus our primary school memories and lots of stuffs, THAT I DONT KNOW!!!
Then Farhan was on the way back home and we asked him to joined us for awhile. We, the three of us, had a great time together!! So much stories that i got to know from him, about all my BF's. Haiz. You all ah!!! I miss you all so much! HAIZ.
Lady H, thanks for hearing me out about my problems..
Thank you so much.
Oh yah, Last long with F ok?
I'm jealous ni.
No BF taw me.
HAHA
No lah, i was just joking ok, Lady H?
Last Long ok.
Amin.


After that, I went to meet mum.
Thanks for the treat.
Then, I went back home.
Feeling sick.

To Saiful : I'm sorry. I can't bare to wave goodbye to you today. I know you're going Germany today. And yeah, Your flight was at 8pm today. I'm sorry. I can't go there today. I hope, when you come back here, you're back in ONE piece. :) HAHA!!!

Have a safe trip, Muhd SaifulIslam.

Cinta

Cinta, I didn't expect you to call me around 3am plus. I was just lazying around,thinking what you were doing at that point of time. And, suddenly when the phone rings, i thought it might be something urgent. But, it turn out to be you. I thought you, accidently pressed out. But, no. Its you, for real. Cinta, you make me happy for the moment. Although it last for awhile, I appreciate it so much.

I miss you.
I miss you.
When you told me this, All i was thinking about it, when can i get to meet you again?

I wish to hug you.
When you told me this, I wonder when.

I love you.
I wish you told me this, infront of my face now. Looking in your eyes.

I just didn't expect it to happened that morning. Thanks Cinta.
I thought you were sleeping, then I hang up.
Then you called me back and say ,' sorry, I love you.'


Thanks Cinta..
:)

C. I. N. T. A

Cinta, do you know that i miss you so much???

Cinta, how are you today?

Cinta, have you eaten?

Cinta, what are you doing?

Cinta, I MISS YOU.

Cinta, Take care. I know you're ill now.

Good Night Cinta.



Msn-ing with Bob. Thanks for cheering me up.
Msn-ing with Fadz. BoySanchiko? Hahah
Thanks for the name, ShaSha Baby Star jepon. ( FCUK )

:)

ku menanti

I know. There's something wrong somewhere. I don't know why. You sent me that text and you've made me cry again. Thinking, what wrong have I done again?? Why? If i've made you feel that way, i'm sorry. But, I just don't know what's going on here.
You said, ' It will be a lie if you don't miss or loved someone thats hard to let it go.. Take care.' And I went, BLUR. I don't understand what you were trying to tell me.. Please, tell me what's wrong dear. Tell me will you. I don't wish you to hide anything from me cause i don't wish to not knowing something that i must know about. I know you're lying. If you're reading this, please, text me cause I miss you. You know what, I'm crying now as i'm typing all this...

I have no idea, why are we always like this. Happy and the next moment, sad. I'm not feeling well here. And it makes me more weak when you said that.. Yes! Maybe I miss him, as a friend. But I've learned to let him go. And when you said TakeCare, It's like as if you're leaving me. Are you?? Tell me. Are you going to do that? Are you?? I hope no. I don't wish to lose someone.. I had enough of losing one. And now?

I just wish everything would be fine. Just fine. Be fine. And i'll be fine..

Maybe painting helps to cheer me up. Maybe. I'll give it a try then..

I'll continue later on.

bleah?

Somerset.
Orchard.
Dhoby Ghaut.
Hougang.
Home.


Look out for skater guys at somerset. HEHE! GATAL! Walk walk walk!!
Is, i meet you next time ok, <3? Then we go KB together! Heehee..

Walk walk walk! Enjoying every moment. Meet my mum! Then we went to buy some stuffs. LOL. Walk here and there. PENATZ but BEST!!
Ok bye bye!
I want to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttttttt my dear. :) WEE~~

Possible

Sometimes, being alone seems to be the best. Walking around to my favourite places.. There's this one place that makes me calm. This place is one of my favourite. You can feel the wind, brushing through your hair. The sight, which makes you fall in love with this place. The people, doing this one activity. I just enjoyed myself down there. Went around to another place.. This one place makes me fall and cry. I sat at the exact place where we sat before. Remembering everything that took place there. What we shared. I cried, thinking about it. And it makes me fall asleep for awhile. When I woke up, I felt giddy again.. I notice something was not right. I can feel something, inside my nose. Well, again and again. It's a normal thing to me now. Don't worry. I'm ain't dying. :)
Walked around, remembering what you told me. Went back home. Feeling so tired. Hoping to sleep early , but can't. SHIT.

You know where to find me.


We're going to the same place. Will you care to find me with just my smile??


F, you're back home now? Botak! See you soon.

ah

Sepandai mana tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh juga.
Sepandai mana kau tipu, akhirnya terbongkar jua. <3

Today, he's booking out.. So, maybe meeting F. Miss you so much, kaypo!! MEET SOON DEAR!!

Hey hey, it's October. Why not i try something new? Let's try to be wild! HELL YEAH! Alright, I just know what to do now..

See the changes in me, in few hours time, ok? HAHA!

LALLALAL

To Muhd Syawal, You have a good rest ok? It's ok. I'm fine with it. Make sure you stay at home ok??
Psst.. Love you.