boring

boring. got nothing to do. nothing to say.
seriously.....
now, commenting on Musa's status/post. Ader jer ni mamat menyebok!! Si ZZ or ZAZA. haha

now bored.

now paramore-ing.

now commenting.




, " you can like anyone but you can only love one."

Don't Speak.

Hey there peeps!! Missing for a few days only and i felt sucks for not updating my lil blog here. MAN! Well, i just commented on my own Wall Post, which is ; ' feels like i'm losing my bestfriends.' I felt that way, because, i'm all already missing my secondary school friends. Suddenly, i'm thinking about them all. Our memories... All the sweetest memories i had, is during my Design and Technology lessons. My canteen. My parade Square. My Hall. AND also not to forget my teachers that taught me before. I love you guys.. To all my friends, i miss you guys. I miss those days where we first get to know each other. The way that we laugh, make jokes, make fun of others(IMPORTANT), and also the sadness that we all had. I miss those days that we run,cry,laugh together. The song we used to sing together, the things we used to shared or borrowed. Those mornings that we used to meet each other at the Bustop. Walking together, gossiping. I miss those days...


Haish.
I've got to go now.

Collide.

'...finally find you and I Collide..' ~ Collide by Howie Day.

Nice song ever. Love it so much that i kept on playing it like almost, LOTS OF TIMES! till i get bored! HAHA!! Not much today. Stayed at home. Boring.. Send messages through FB.. Hey Kalil, it's been quite a long time i've not chat with you or even meet you out there.. Well, i hope everything went well, i mean your studies and all. Hope to meet you soon... OH YEAH!

, my malay is all messed up. seriously. well, i do understand MY language, like DUH, but sometimes i find it hard to understand it. This modern days, our very own language, we've all neglected it. Like, talk and speaks English more than our ver own Mother Tongue language. Sometimes, when i talked to my friends, i've mixed both languages.. HAIYO!

well, aunt just got back. and this week, I'm so freaking HAPPY, cause this week, i've got presents from MUM and AUNT. Mum bought me a Wallet and today, I've got a Billbong bag.. This makes me happy. As if, it was my Birthday. HAHA!!


well, i heard from kalil that he never saw farkhan again. And that makes me worry, alot.. I never see him anymore... But, its ok. Who knows he already went to NS. I wished him all the best there. And , dear GOD, help me tell Farkhan that i missed him alot. Help me..


and now, my brother is a bit Irritating. its about his earpiece. OHMYGOD! conflict!! URGH! but, when he's not around at home, i found it kind of weird. Because there's no one to fight with!!!!! hahah!!!!

Disturb Faizal and also CREBO!!!! haha..
Dear Crebo, Please change my name. Instead if T.K, put it somethingelse.. PLEASEEEE!!!!


Nights people. Italy, no matter what, i still love you. HAH!

the lost

' Setiap yang hidup harus mati. '

my cousin's grandmother passed away on the Monday. I was shocked. And quickly went to Teban Gardens, where her uncle house is.. For the first time, i saw her crying. Bit by bit her tears drop... That was my first time.............. We send the dead to the cemetery. And we saw EVERYTHING! How the place the dead, the position and all. And that spooks me out..After everything's done, we went back home. Went to Jurong POint, eat and walked around. And mum bought me a NEW CHARLES&KEITH WALLET!! HAPPY SIA AKU!! hahah..

After that, we went home. Me and my happy mood!! HAHA!! Took train back home.. Admiring this one guy. HAHA! He's so cute. He's smile. He's attitude. But, oh well, this is just fantasy....


~ SO, just got back home from following my mum, SHOPPING. Her stuffs, not mine. HEHE!! Let her be her... For this is the best for her, She's just so stress with the PEOPLE IN THE HOUSE, INCLUDING ME. I'm just a pretty lazy bum. Thats all. Unlike someonelse.................



I've nit talked to him. If he ask me questions, i would just answered him and walked away.. I'm full of anger when it comes to that. He kept on busy with his bloody phone. Neglected me..and my brother. What the hell is going on here? Whenever they talked, they'll fight.. My GOD! I sometimes can't take it. Felt like, running away and never come back here, my house...But, to think back, if i did that, it would be more worse than ever.......... URGH!! This is killing me............






, Cried over Farkhan. I cried for him, like AGAIN!.

Mengapa aku yang terluka? Aku yang merana, menahan baki siksa cinta ini? Why Farkhan? Why? Where are you now? I need you.. All my friends told me to leave you.. Leave you alone. But, no matter how many times i've tried to forget what we;ve had, i can't. This is killing me off. Damn. You may be my past, but you may not be erased from my mind easily... Why? because i like you. no one else. its hard for the guys out there, to have me, cause in my heart and mind is you, Farkhan Yusoff. But, what am i gonna do about it? I can wait for you. I'm willing too. All i want is you to still contact with me, but , no. You did not even text me like what you usually did. How? Do you know, how much i've cried for you? NO. No. You never no about it, don't you? Only that day, we've spent, even if it's for awhile, i appreciated it so much. Thank you for being there with me. Everything that i did, it reminds me of you, tell me, how on earth am i gonna forget about you??? How? is easy for you to say, but, its not for me. Its not easy... I've also told myself that one day, you come back to me. And we could live happily. I am still hoping for you to come... Still...

I'm still waiting, F.

runaway love

'No one in this world was born to be a Perfect Person.' No one. We're all the same human beings. We're all equal. We made mistakes and run away from it. Far away with no direction...

, The pain starts to come back. It hurts alot. I'm wondering whats going on with my head. Everday, i had to endure the pain.. And today, something happened. Near the stomach area, there's this one kind of pain that hurts me. My mother saw me, pressing on it and asked me what happen. I told her, there's nothing. And when she saw me, pressing it harder, she told me that maybe i had gastrics or appendix. And she went on telling me that, if it's real, i had to undergo an operation. AND, I was so scared. Scared that, if i went for it, would i be able to wake up after i had it done? but, not to worry. I think everything is going to be fine. Serious, is.

, Thanks Faizal. You've cheered me up that day. And you've made me laugh alone in my room. HAHA! Well, once again i would like to say , Thank you Faizal. ALthough we've just know each other, you're a great friend ever. And not to forget, a great SPAMMER!! haha. :D

, I'm a heartbreaker. I break people's heart. I'm selfish. Selfish.. I remembered what a friend told me before, 5 years ago; ' natassha, you're a selfish person.'
And thats real.. But, don't think negatively on me. I'm trying to change myself. Its not too late to change myself. I must grab this chance before, i closed my eyes. Dead. Give me chance to prove to all of you, that i could change myself. Serious. No joking.

, chance is needed. :D

Si Jejaka Berbaju Putih

HEY YO!! I'm back from mini work. HAHA! Well, i followed mum and my cousins including aunts and so called grandmother,COOKING! It's a malay wedding which is at Tampines. SO, Friday evening, got myself prepared for things that i should bring with. MummyIpok and PapaReeno picked me and my family excluding my dad and Maklong. Reached there, around eight or nine plus at night, and then the works starts. Actually i was supposed to help, but, cutting was not for me. I'm not the prefect one. So, the ladies do their jobs and me, LEPAK AH! HAHA! Plan to watch SOCCER at MacD with Abang Ein. And he brought his friends too; Asri and Acul(I guess so its the right spelling). Spent time with them, laughing. HAH! After that, Sayang Masreena came. And we watched soccer together. Crowds, Mat Basikal, lots of people when it comes to soccer. They don't care if the match is as early as 2am, as long as they watched it and happy with the results. HAH! When i got into the MacD, saw some SLEEPY HEADS, HAH!.. After the match ended, walked like a DRUNKARD. Me, sayang Masreena , Asri and Abang ein.... All the way, we walked like a ZOMBIE! HAHA! Went back to the event site, and i took over Kak Ila's job which is , BLENDERING THE CHILLI'S! For the FIRST TIME EVER, I'm using that blender thing.. And i'm just si scared that it might get BLAST OFF!!! Do this, do that. Sleep at 8am plus. Went to Abang Ein house, and slept there.... WAKE UP AT 2.30pm!!!!!!! HAHAH!! Rush out and went to the Event site. WAH! I'm tired, watching, helping them. HAISH!! Went back home, bath and sleeping SOON!!! HAH!

; ArabChinese. <3 Thats it for now.

The church hot addiction

hey there. I'm back to post. It's been quite long i've not post anything.. Lots of stories to shared. Lots lots of things happened lately..
Well, firstly, my good friend TAUFIK TEO, caught in an accident at Malaysia , Terengganu, last week. And we all went to meet him at the SGH.It was a SHOCKING NEWS to me.At first, i may not want to believe it. I got to know from Amirah via Tuafik's aunt.When i heard that, i though it would be a minor injuries and nothing would happened to him and his family. But, as what i've been told about a malay saying;'malang tak berbau.' The accident happened to take his lovely grandparents and his lovely sister. I got to know, when Taufik called me one day in the afternoon, saying that now he's fine and now he's admitted at the SGH. Alhmadulillah. But, when i asked him, is everyone okay, his tone went down, he told me that he losts them all and he's the only one survived. At that time of point, my tears just went down.I was totally shocked, i'm so speechless, as if i'm losing mine. I told him, just be relax, let the ones gone go so that they would go there easily without having someone not to let them go.. The very next day, me and the boys went to visit Taufik. At first, i was so damn scared that i might cried infront of him. But, i make sure he won't see me cry. And eventually i did that. And he did not knew it. I do not want him to be sad, but by the way he talked to us is like, he's trying to be happy and make sure that he acts as if nothing happened.. We're all happy that he's now fine.. He's happy now, but heard that he needs to go through operations here and there. Hopefully he's fine.. Amin.

To Nas, i just remembered about your Operation. I hope everything went well.. Amin.

Well lots of things happened between me and him nowadays. I must get away from him. He's now showing loves towards me, but in order not to hurt him, at least i've told him that i'm not prepared about relationships in my young age now.. Well, all i want now is to enjoy life. I want to expand my interest in ART, like painting and more. And also, to find myself a part-time job not only for holidays, but it's for my own good. What i meant was, i need my own money to buy things that i want too bad. And i can't just like depend on my parents at all time.. Well since i'm a failure to find a job during June holidays, perhaps i'm going to find one after school reopens. And hopefully i can manage my time well. Insyallah. Amin.

Tomorrow, i will be following mum cooking, well the whole family of my father maybe coming down. It's a catering for marriages. YEAHH! Can't wait to help down tomorrow night till Saturday evening. It's gonna be a tiring day for me and my mum. HEHE!

SOCCER! It's WORLD CUP NOW! I'm so in LOVE with MEXICO,SPAIN,ITALY and PORTUGAL!! Well they're all HOT! and not that, i also watched them played too ok! haha. From Mexico, i've got CARLOS VELA!!! From Spain, I've got FERNANDO TORRES!!! From Italy, I DON'T KNOW!!! And from Portugal, I've got CRISTIANO RONALDO!!!

Okay, now i'm listening to ALL the CobraStarships songs. I LOVE IT!! YEAH!!! Feels like playing the guitar and piano/keyboard and sing till dawn!!! HAH! How i wished i had my own band????!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO HAVE MY OWN BAND! AND I'M GONNA SING!! HAH!!

OKAYH, loving my hair now because it has a nice fragrance, from my shampoo; Herbal Escessence. HEHE!! WOOOHOO!! okay, people, i'm off now.. well, next time i shalll post about him, for now, i don't want to talk about him yet.. OKAY!! HEHE!!!

woooblly

Thanks uncle for treating me,adik and my mum yesterday. I thought of not following my mum to LITTLE INDIA as she needs to buy one or two kitchen stuffs, but end up me and adik follow her and my uncle, Pak Lang. He bought us lots of things. Me and adik we've got our Headphones. Mine green and Adik's black. After that, went home and put all the stuffs that we had and then went to RivervalePlaza. Soon after that, my eye got caught by someone. SOMEONE. And it is Farkhan again. After quite a long time i never saw him, i finally get to meet him. But, i walked away as fast as possible to get rid of him. SO yeah, after that WENT HOME!!

At home, called the guys. TALK TALK TALK TILL WE FIGHT FOR A WHILE.HAHA!! FUNNY!

I'm sooo gonna meet him soon. SOOOOO!! Maybe next week. yeahh.... let's all wait and seeee...... <3

forgive.

He text me just now. Saying sorry and didn't mean it,bla bla bla bla.... I don't know what to do. I didn't reply his text yet.. I just don't know what should I say or do.. This feeling is killing me out. URGH!! He kept asking his friend to call me, and asked me how am i and why i behaved odd towards him. His friend told me just now, and all i say was,'nahh..i'm okay and i don't want to know about this.' Well, i may forgive him but, right now, my feelings is messed up! WOAH!! Well, thats it for today..
I miss my two boyfriends. Kalil and Crebo. Wonder what they're doing right now.. HMMMM.....

Love, nat. <3

MIKA

This morning i heard the song sang by MIKA,Danish favourite song.. HAHA!I wonder how they all are now? HMMM.... Okay,now i'm boring, i'm listening to the radio now, sing by BlackEyedPeas make me groovy!! Let's dance. I want TO SING! I want to prove to my mum that i could sing!! ERGH! HAHA!

< He text me. I never reply. Done. Thats it.
Continueeeeeeeee later ..

friend..

Today is the sad day for me. My four friends left to San Francisco today. And i did send them off with the rest of my friends. Wake up call by Izat, thanks. And went off to Airport with Eyfa at 6am plus. Reached there,I tried to help myself to be happy. But end up, I miss them so much. After sending them off, went to Macdonald's for breakfast and off to school for the Pixar exhibition. Felt happy,great but abit missing someone. I miss his lame jokes and her 'sorry?''excuse me,'. I kept thinking about them. After that, went to Jurong Point with the whole VFX, to eat. And i sat beside him. It's like, i didn't plan to sit beside him. Hm, it's okay then. SUDDENLY, i saw something which i was not supposed to see. Well, i can't tell here. Just asked me will do privately. I was like, abit hurt......

(You like me, but yet when i saw THAT, I felt as though i was being playing and toying around. Please, tell me the truth. I hate two faced people.)

After eating and after i saw THAT, i kept my distance away from him. AWAY!! Later; me, sadiq,taufik and fadzli went to ORCHARD CENTRAL. We ate, sleep and window shopping. It was FUN!! Fadzli told me about what si dier tuh told him. And si dier tuh text Taufik asking about me..( ASKED ME )



Fika came to me and asked me what happened to me about the last few posts about Farkhan. I told her, it's nothing.. I don't know where he is now and why should i care, it's none of my problem. He don't care about me, and i also don't care about him. JERK!

Well Fika, i just need time to heal my wound that is still hurt. I can't possibly forget him just like that, i need more time to erase him off. Too many, too many memories that i've still kept.. Don't you thing that i'm not gonna come back to you.. No, i'm not gonna come back farkhan..

>> usually i'm not like that, i'm not like how i am now.. This Nurul Natassha have changed. I'm not like what you used to think of.. I'm gonna give up on you.. Don'try to tell me what to do and say better off that way. A way that you want, FREEDOM. I'm giving you now.

>> I know tha you like me, A. But, after i saw THAT, i felt that i'm just a girl that you've replace so easily after the previous one that you loved.. I felt as though, the LIKE that you've told me, is just for a while. I don't believe to what you've told me. Seriously. If you truly like me, what must you do? i'm not forcing, i'm just asking, what must you do? thats all. You asked them why i never talked to you where you just go walk alone, and when i called you to walked with us, you disappear. What is this? are you afraid to tell me that you like me, and treated me like as if, i'm invicible? haiyo. this is what i called , a guy that likes a girl but didn't to want to show it..












DEAR NURUL NATASSHA BINTE JUMMAD, YOU'RE SICK!! I MISS HIM. I MISS CREBO. I MISS HER. I MISS LATE GRANDPA..





> cause i'm in love with you and wants to accept you. but, this is what i get... fck.


fck much.

And when it rains.............

SO, my uncle from Kuala Lumpur came here yesterday. His daughter, is going to get married on the 26TH June 2010. So, he came here with his Wife to invite our relatives in Singapore... Firstly, we went to Bukit Panjang Ring. I was hoping to bump onto Sadiq or Reez, but too bad. After that, we went to Anderson(Redhill), where another part of our relatives stays there.. Talk talk talk, eat eat eat and went back home around 12am.. Got back home, rest, eat and bath. Text him. He wants me to accompany him but, i can't. I have to send back my uncle and his wife back. Hmm...I've told him maybe next time and I guess he must be sad, abit? Maybe...


So, on the Monday, i'm gonna send my friends to the airport, and i'm going to MISS THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I KNOW!! AWWWWWWWWWW!!!!
OUHHHH! HAHA!



Why i still cried for him? Friday morning, when i was cleaning my room, a sudden feelings about him came to. And i cried. I don't know why. I'm reminded of what he did or say to me. This feeling, it came back so sudden. DAMNNN!!
This type of guy, i don't need it back in my LIFE. SO,go away as far as you can go..

Mat Salleh

Yesterday,( 5th June ) went out with AMIRAH, TAUFIK TEO AND FADZLI. Actually the reason is, I want to go for a JOB HUNT, but instead we walked around the ORCHARD. First thing first, met Amirah at Tampines MRT. Waited for the guys. Meet the guys at SKATE PARK. It was actually my FIRST time there. Lots of MAT SKATER. HAHAHA. AND,,, MAT SALLEH!! My eyes fall for this guy who looks like REEZ! HAHA! I thought it was him at first, the first glance but when i LOOKED again, it's NOT!! HAHA! MAT SALLEH, looking here and there, URGH!! But, they're handsome though.. NAH. Not for me yeah! I'm looking for a LOCAL MALAY GUYS... YEAH!! AFTER THAT, we ate at LONGJOHN. AND THEN,, RETURN BACK TO SKATE PARK AGAIN! THE BOYS LAH! SO OBSESSED TO SKATE! AND it rains, they stopped and we decided to go to VIVOCITY!! Walk around, looking for SHOES. EAT. THEN BACK HOME! Fadzli and Taufik, they went back late than me, they LEPAK!!

>It's nice to meet you there. I wished that i could meet you again. I wished for that. Hopefully it comes true. Hopefully.

So, Before meeting them, guess who i met?? IT'S KALIL!!
HAHA! I was waiting for the bus and he was there, on the road, riding on his bike and at first i didn't recognised him until i saw his familiar shirt. AND HE SAW ME! HE waved at me! AWW! That's so SWEET! And i waved back to! HEHE!

Today, my uncle from KUALA LUMPUR IS HERE!! It's just he and his Wife. YEAH!!!

~ MISSED :

I MISS CREBO!! I pitied him. He's a workacholic guy i've ever met! Work till he drop dead! HAHA! I hope you're allright, darling!! HAHA!

AND>>>>>> THIS MONDAY WE'RE GOING TO THE PIXAR EXHIBITION!!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT, DARLING!!! ( can wear homeclothes ) but.... the sad thing is our 4 friends are unable to join us.. HAISH..

TO MY 4 FRIENDS WHO ARE LEAVING FOR THE SAN FRANCISCO, I WISH YOU GUYS AND GIRLS ALL THE BEST THERE. WE'RE GONNA MISS YOU LOTS!! TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF THERE OK?? :D

Must i?

One has confess to me. The other one, seems to like me. What the hell is going on here?? Must I choose, either one of them? OH NO! This is hard for me. I've made a decision on NOT TO CHOOSE EITHER ONE OF THEM. Seriously, i'm afraid to get hurt again and that i'm not prepared yet. Hope you guys understand me. I appreciate it lots, since you both care about me, but i'm sorry, i'm not the one for you guys. So Sorry. :(


~ DREAM :

I had a weird dream EVER! It's about this guy, he wears everything in BLACK. BLACK SHOES, SHIRT, PANTS ; EVERYTHING!! And he walked behind me, like following where i'm going or walking to. And, suddenly my Ring breaks. It was a heartpain, and i've decided to left it somewhere or throw it. And i left it on a Bench, where i've seated to. And walked away. As i was walking away from the bench, suddenly i felt as though there's someone putting something onto my hand. And when i turned around, i saw that guy, but its too dark, i can't see him well, and on my hand is the ring, he gave back my ring and ran away as fast as he could....... after that, I WOKE UP!!

Isn't it WEIRD? Yes, It is. I'm still thinking who did that to me, who's that guy?? hmm............



nothing much to say. seems its a boring day for me.
peace.
<3.

i'm not moving

It's holiday time! Time for all of us to ENJOYY!! Well now that i'm on holiday, i felt restless. why? because,staying at home all day long seems to me, it's kind of BORED, nothing else to do, besides ; Eating,Sleeping,Facing the Computer all day long.. It's like,a person with NO LIFE! hahaha!! I'm searching for a job now, serious. ( am not KIDDING! ) Haiyo!! So, let me tell you what happened Yesterday.



went out with MUM. buying things for my aunt. went to EXPO, JohnLittle having sale and mum bought a pair of shoes. it's pretty though. suits her well, as long as she love it, i'm happy about it..YEAH!

after a long day out, got back home, settle everything down and i just couldn't get myself to SLEEP. call IZAT. call FADZLI. and CONFERENCE with them, plus TAUFIK.. talked crap here and there.. till like 3am plus! WOOHOO! But, soon after that, i text Crebo till i fall asleep waiting for his reply!! sorry! haha..

SO......

Morning, reply Crebo texts.. ( GO EAT MEDICINE LAH BACIN!! ) he's sick, and yet so stubborn.. ergh!! hahaha.. so, am still planning about THIS FRIDAY! i want to search for a JOB. PLEASE!! I want it so BADLY!!! *sigh

So here's the PLAN :

Friday: going out, to Orchard..and anywhere else. i don't care as long as i get to go out, it's GOOD!! hmm, still thinking of what to add on..


~ LOVE :

I'm worried. I know that ; What's past, is past. Thanks Fadzli..Thanks to you too Taufik, for the advises. But, it isn't easy to forget about him.. And i need you guys around me,to be with me. I'm trying my VERY best to forget it, give me sometime guys. And that Confession, i know that he likes me, but, i'm sorry i can't, let's just be friends. Friends will do. I'm not prepared for all this Relationships that doesn't give me happiness but sadness all the way. And now, when i'm reaching for that happiness, something blocked me.And it's your Confession.. I'm sorry if it hurts you, but, i hope, you understand how i feel right now.... right now, i'm in the process to not fall in love with anybody else, and no one can force me too till i want it myself.. and i'm gonna prove to Farkhan that I can live without him in my life.. i'm gonna do that..

This is life. We all must go through this. Life must go on with or without you, Farkhan. I can do it.. I just wanna wish you all the best in life. I hope you're happy with Her..
Take care.
Amin.


<3 Nat.(the girl that once a part of your life)