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my cousin's grandmother passed away on the Monday. I was shocked. And quickly went to Teban Gardens, where her uncle house is.. For the first time, i saw her crying. Bit by bit her tears drop... That was my first time.............. We send the dead to the cemetery. And we saw EVERYTHING! How the place the dead, the position and all. And that spooks me out..After everything's done, we went back home. Went to Jurong POint, eat and walked around. And mum bought me a NEW CHARLES&KEITH WALLET!! HAPPY SIA AKU!! hahah..
After that, we went home. Me and my happy mood!! HAHA!! Took train back home.. Admiring this one guy. HAHA! He's so cute. He's smile. He's attitude. But, oh well, this is just fantasy....
~ SO, just got back home from following my mum, SHOPPING. Her stuffs, not mine. HEHE!! Let her be her... For this is the best for her, She's just so stress with the PEOPLE IN THE HOUSE, INCLUDING ME. I'm just a pretty lazy bum. Thats all. Unlike someonelse.................
I've nit talked to him. If he ask me questions, i would just answered him and walked away.. I'm full of anger when it comes to that. He kept on busy with his bloody phone. Neglected me..and my brother. What the hell is going on here? Whenever they talked, they'll fight.. My GOD! I sometimes can't take it. Felt like, running away and never come back here, my house...But, to think back, if i did that, it would be more worse than ever.......... URGH!! This is killing me............
, Cried over Farkhan. I cried for him, like AGAIN!.
Mengapa aku yang terluka? Aku yang merana, menahan baki siksa cinta ini? Why Farkhan? Why? Where are you now? I need you.. All my friends told me to leave you.. Leave you alone. But, no matter how many times i've tried to forget what we;ve had, i can't. This is killing me off. Damn. You may be my past, but you may not be erased from my mind easily... Why? because i like you. no one else. its hard for the guys out there, to have me, cause in my heart and mind is you, Farkhan Yusoff. But, what am i gonna do about it? I can wait for you. I'm willing too. All i want is you to still contact with me, but , no. You did not even text me like what you usually did. How? Do you know, how much i've cried for you? NO. No. You never no about it, don't you? Only that day, we've spent, even if it's for awhile, i appreciated it so much. Thank you for being there with me. Everything that i did, it reminds me of you, tell me, how on earth am i gonna forget about you??? How? is easy for you to say, but, its not for me. Its not easy... I've also told myself that one day, you come back to me. And we could live happily. I am still hoping for you to come... Still...
I'm still waiting, F.