The first week of school ends. And i'm happy as now, it's weekend. It's saturday today, and i'm stucked at home now, me and only my aunt at home. I'm blogging and my aunt,sleeping (i guess). HEEs. Oh well, this week, i fought with my brother. He went to delete ALL our memories, the videos when we were still young. OMG! i'm seriously mad at him.. Thanks Azmi,Is Bueno,Maldevee aka Ishaq, and all that has given me some advises upon this matter. I love you all guys and girls. And not to forget, Taufik too. Well, i may forgive him but i'll never forget what he'd done. I cried when i got to found out that the videos were all gone. Oh My. Those were precious. I don't mind if i'm not rich or what but, those videos were so precious to me. Whenever i'm all down, watching those videos will help, to cheer me up. Now, there's nothing that will cheer me up. I'm all upset. I've not been talking to him, since the day that he confessed to me that he deleted my videos till now. Oh Gosh, this is killing me... URGH!
Making friends. That's what i did the last few days. I had a great time with them. ALthough we've just know each other, it felt as though we've known each other for long... Hopefully, our friendship last long dudes. :D
I'm in the centre of these two party. I don't know which to choose or to be with.. Maybe, i'll choose none. They are my bestfriends for now.. They're the nicest people i've ever met, but the problem is now, both got attitude. I'm their walls. Friends, please, i'm begging you.. Maybe i may have the attitude, but please, i don't want to fight just over a small matter. I may be close to A but i'll never forget B too. Both are my bestfriends... I belong to whoever, i don't just belong to a friend. And to A, i don't just belong to you. I need to be fair to the both of you. I need space too. Space on my own, instead of being with you always. I hate to be treated like that. I wannna be free. Free to do what ever i want to do and be with. I can't possibly be with you forever. And to B, it's the same too. Be fair to others. Well, it's up to you both, if you read this... I'm letting it out, cause i'm sick and tired of being your walls. Now, all i need is a break.
Can't you see for yourself? i've given you the answer and what's more you want from me? can't you just leave me alone? Think about the consequences. Please, i'm begging you. Please. I'm tired of all this. Haven't they tell you about the consequences before? I want you to live your life happy and not misery, emoing here and there just because of me? Please. this would be the first and the last time, i'm telling you to just leave me alone. That would be good..for the both of us...
F, nurul will still wait for you. No matter what happens. I'll will! Eventhough it takes time, which is 2 years... I'll wait for you, dear. I will. I miss you so much... Please reply that message.. I'm waiting...for your return.. I can't replace you.. No matter how hard, i've tried, i can't......... F, nurul will wait for you..
ILY. <3