I don't want to think about it so much. It'll hurt. So, I'm trying to make myself busy with stuffs. I remember every word that you say. I don't want to think so much about you. I love the way you call me.. But, it's all over, I guess. It's ok, I'll be fine. I'm happy to see you happy with your love one.. I'm smiling widely eventhough it hurts..
I remember the very first time get to know you.
I remember the very first time you text me.
I remember every single thing.
I'll remember, 27Th July 2010.
I remember every word that you say and it keeps playing around in my mind.
The day you tell me everything.
The thing that you say.
Those words you say.
Those hearts that you gave.
Those smiles that you gave.
I'll never forget it all. Simply because, I LOVE YOU...
But, I may not get the chance to say it.
Nevermind.
I'll let it go then.
Yesterday was horrible. I didn't sleep till now. I can't sleep, thinking about him. His words. My reactions. Oh, It sucks. I hate it..
When it comes to Sahur, I ate alot. Mum said that i've gone crazy. I ignored and ate as much as possible. Then I found myself, in the toilet, throwing it up. Blood in there. It was so DISGUSTING VOMIT EVER IN MY WHOLE LIFE! Well, after those terrible thing happened, I lay down on my bed. Thinking and thinking till now thinking.
I've made cookies with all my heart and soul in it. I stopped thinking about him, till he text me something which made me shed tears...
It's been so long since you last call me that. I remember the time where i denied about it and you convinced me again and again, without fail..
Those times... They're just so cute. But, now, no more right?
I guess so..
Was it just your attitude?
It's tearing me apart.
Like I say; I'm smiling widely eventhough it hurts.